Aaaaaaaaaaa! I feel so sad today, and last night too. Because high school is now over. Starting a brand new beginning.

Dina and Matika are leaving tommorow. Dina is leaving to Bandung and Matika back to Thailand. Hope that you guys would become the best Psychologist (Dina) and Designer (Matika). All the best guys! I'll pray for your success! We'll meet again, we have to! Teehee.

Tapi I feel happy because my dad planned farewell party for Dina at my house. Yay! Though this is probably her 3rd farewell party. Hehehe. xD Habis nya she has been my beeest friend since I was in year 6. She also helps me with my studies too.

Wheee. Prom was fun afterall. Hehe. But my make up was wayyy to thick, so many people didnt recognise me. Hahah. Even my dad. HAAA. Jahat. Anak sendiri. Hehe. Do I look that different without my glasses? Or maybe of the make up. The freking make up artist was being such a perfectionist. Bleh. My face, layered with foundation, concealer, face powder and the glittery face powder. Bleh. The eyeshadow did not come off that easily. Bleh. The liquid eyeliner was also hard to remove. Udah cuci muka 2 kali ga ilang2. Haha.

We (Dina,Nian and I, well some others too) were late for our own prom. We (Dina, Nian and I) had 2 reasons why we were late. 1. Di salon nya lamaaaaa. 2. Traffic jam.

I've realised how much Im gonna miss all my classmates now. Its so saaaaaad. I swear Im really really gonna miss them.

Me and Matika

Shyn, Me and Aminath

Me, Aminath, Dina, Nian, Sarah and Matika


Nian, Me, Sarah and Dinaaaaa.

Huh? What?
Yep yep. Aku capek banget, 2 hari ini. Ive just got back dari jalan, well a few minutes ago though. Dari Pavi, dinner with friends. another farewell party for Dina, and there's gonna be another one too. Teeheee!

Kemaren aku right after the end of exam, my friends - Matika and AminoAcid, and I jalan2, bolak balik dari KLCC to Pavi to Sungei Wang, terus pulangnya dari Sungei Wang ke KLCC. Jalan lagi, huff capek. But it was fuuuun :D Kita photobox juga. Teehee.

Terus hari ini jalan2 lagi, di Pavi kita jalan, makan, terus nyari2 things for prom. I was looking for jepit rambut, red one. Tapi I cant find one. The black ones are gorgeous though, but kalo hitam, ga bisa contrast sama rambut. Huhu.

Whee. Tommorow's prom. Guhh. No its today. Its past 12AM alreadyyy. Heh. Like Dina, im not excited for the events, but I wanna see wat people gonna wear. Whee!

I am not gonna miss Mutiara, but Im gonna miss my classmates T_T

Yay oh yay!
Besok lusa, I'll be having my last IGCSE paper. Sooo excited.
Tp takut jg ngeliat result nya. So nervous too! Hehe.

Friday prom and I look so ridiculous with the dress, selendang and shoes. Haha.
Td, I woke up at 8 today. Terus mandi, sarapan and Chemistry tuition at 10.
Terus, I finish at 12 and walked to KLCC, alone. haha.

Ketemu mama, Dina,Nian, Tante Yanti and Tante Nurul in Isetan.Kita jalan2. Cari prom shoes and stuff. Got my shoes. Wheee. Haha. Baru aja pake semenit and after I took off my shoes... My feet are so pegel. Haha. And Im gonna be wearing those shoes for like 5 hours of more. Ga sehat tuh buat kaki. Hihih. Shopping with friends (dan ibu2 jg) was quite fun. It wasnt as bad as I thought, ngeh.

Uhhh. Sekarang aku lg waiting for Kumis' tuition. Grr. I cant believe that I would be seeing maths again. I wish that I am completely free from Maths. Haha. He's always late for tuition. Bleh. And eats a lot too! Sampe roti 2 habis.HAHAHAHA.

Last Saturdaaay. My family, Dina's family, Nian's family, Sarah's family, Muthia's family and I went for a dinner together somewhere in Ampang. Tempat nya bagus lhoo! Seger, cold air and fogs, free from pollution! Haha. But the restaurant was freaking crowded. This was my second time going there. The place was nicer last time tho, cuz it wasnt THAT crowded. They have more tables now. So it was more crowded. Haha. Adn so noisy. Haha. It was soooo fun! Haha. I love family gatherings. Teeheee. But Nindy's family was missing. Aww. I wish she'd came, kangen punching her. (:

I ate (and Nian too) black pepper chicken chopp. I was yummyyy. I drank (and Nian too)  chocolate milkshake, it was yummy tooooo! I was so full. Hehe, Pulang2 langsung tidur. I was so damn sleepy.... and full. Bleh.

Sarah, Dina, Nian and I

Ok ok. I feel hyper again. Wheee~
Im full of energy today. Ready to punch people's face. Haha!
Gara2 ke gym jd gila gini ya? Weird. I swear.

Another reason why I am hyper today is becauseee I had exam too! And so I was able to see some of my friends. Teehee. Punching them and anooying them is fun too! Ive been feeling so lonely lately. When my friends are not around, I get boreeeed. Ergh. Tommorow will be boring. Thats my bet.

Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeee~!
Hyper hyper hyper :D

romeo romeo romeooo~ :D

hyper&energetic

Konnichiwaa! Apa kabar semuanya?

Today... er.. um.. Biasa2 aja. Nothing much happened.
Today is ceraaah! Tp sorenya, it was so cloudy. And thundery too.
Bangun jam 6.10 buat solat Subuh. Terus I slept again. Hehehe. Cz I have no exams today. So I was quite relaxed. Besok jg cuma Physics practical paper and there's nothing much to memorise. Teehee.

Hari ini cuma gini gitu aja. Nothing special happened so far. Hari ini aku ke gym. Hehe.
Cz ive been getting this annoying headache again. Ive been so lesu too! Tidur jam 1 or 2an mulu.
So makanya aku ke gym, to refresh myself. I havent been hitting the gym lately. Im so unfiiit. Brisk walk for 20 minute aja aku udah exhausted. Tp aku running jg. Hahah. Baru run for 2 minutes aja udah keringetan and capek. Hehe XD But thats the point, Im trying to make myself exhausted. Jd biar able to sleep earlier. 12 will do tho. :P Wheee
Tapi rasanya seger lhoo. It made me feel really hyper, padahal biasanya loyo gituh. Hihi XD

Gak kerasa yah, in juts a few weeks I will be starting my freaking A-Level programme in HELP. And I very very nervous. I have to work very hard in order to catch up the Maths subject. Oh great, mathematics. Screw me.

Papa offer aku to spend my so called summer holiday in Indonesia. But I dont think it would be possible. I will have tons of mathematics and chemistry tuitions during the break. I dont think that I would stick with the term 'holiday', bullshit man, its only gonna be for 2 weeks.... TWO WEEKS! Ugh. While my little brother's summber holiday is like 2 months or 1 and a half - idk. I can puke blood when I see the calendar.

Aku juga harus belajar to be independant pas masuk ALevel, harus bisa cari transportation sendiri when no one's picking me up from college. Trus harus memorise route2 buses and trains kalo pulangnya nggak pake taxi. Sedangkan pas year 11 sekolahnya kan not that far jd bisa dipesenin taxi or di jemput mama. Its gonna be a big change. But at least I am free from the school's canteen food (yg gak ada rasanya.. hehe).

And and.. In 1 and a half or 2 years, aku bakalan masuk university (mudah2an aku bisa lulus A-Level. I HAVE TO!). Insyaallah masuk ke UNPAD in Bandung, taking Dentistry. Whee~ in order to get into that University I have to get at least Bs. So Im gonna have to work very very very hard to get me B's or A's. I want to get A's! I shall make my parents to be proud of me. Muahaha.

Tapi Im gonna face some problems if I take dentistry. Well, you know. My personality IS the big problem. Kalo dentists kan harus be able to communicate well with their patients. Im not that friendly you know. Im pendiam too. I dont communicate much with people. I spend most of my time locking myself up in my room, aku tuh jadi kayak orang anti-social. Aku juga cemberut mulu. Well that wont make the patients feel welcomed and they'll surely think that I am that kind of person, the judes (did I spell it correct?) kind of person.

The other problem is that I would be away from my parents. I have to be super independant. Aku cuma punya one relative living in Bandung, but im sure that bukan di part of Bandung that Im going. Meskipun begitu, I have one cousin studying in ITB and one more studying in another university. Haha. gatau mereka tinggalnya mau dimana. Bandung is such a hugeee place. Aku juga harus belajar bahasa Sunda nih. I can understand the language (not completely though) but I cant speak or use the words. Cuma bisa 1 2 3 nya doang. Teehee.

Lastly. My immaturity. I have to be more matured. Being too immatured might just drag me into stupid things. I have to be more considerate in making choices. I dont wanna be a spoiled, dependant, very immatured kind of person. I wanna change. 

I kno what I wrote up there dont seem to make sense at all. Haha.  Im lacking of Indonesian vocabulary too. How sad can that be? Very sad.

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Am I that frustrated? Haha. For me, Being one hell of a matured-and-independant person is just way impossible. I dont think I can change.

I think my mood right now is like 50% cheerful and the other 50%, frustrated, stressed out, depressed. Im somewhat worried about the marks, though the exams were allright so far. Im so worried takutnya aku have made clumsy mistakes i n the papers. Im soo scared.

Td pas exam, Physics. Aku kan nganggur as in ngelamun, mikir gatau apa lah karena I finished the paper tp belom di pass up. Trus si Mr Bala passed by, approaching Ismail yg ngangkat tangan. Then he turned to me. Stared at my calculator, lifted it up by his hand and whispered something that I didnt hear. Aku cuek. Didnt bother to look up or say "sorry?" or whatever. I pretended that I didnt notice that he had taken my calculator. Aku ngira he was gonna confiscate my calcutator, I got worried. I thought he was gonna confiscate it because of the photo sticker thing. I kno that gambar can describe a thousand of words. Aku mikir what does that photo's gonna have to do with physics? I cant think of a formula relating to the subject from a photo of 5 narcists in weird poses. Haha. Tau2 nya cuma mau di pinjemin ke Ismail toh. I sighed in relief. Pfhew. -_-

Physics practical paper is on Wednesday! Gonna be a bit nyantai, seeeeee! Im underestimating the paper ):.

I need to think of a good revision technique that I can stick with long-term. Hahah. Any ideas? Anyone? So far, I think Nian was the only one who read (maybe?) my blog entries. Muahahaha! Argh! Wth is wrong with this laptop?! Internetnya kok dced mulu?! ): The signal is unstable too. Stupid wireleeesss

---ALERT! more random stuffs:

mood:
positive : negative
51:49

tari is still addicted to
the anime shown above

[Yuichi Nakamura] Yuuto, Kamen Rider DenO! XD wheeee

but, I am THAT bored.

Helloo~ I am reeeaally bored right now.

I wish that I can have a different life. A life with  no boredom. Teehee. That would be perfect, wouldnt it?

I studied physics like crazy last night until 3. And and, I was sooo panicked that I could die. I woke up quite late too! 6.20 :P

But but, omg omg omg. The paper turned out to be easier than I thought, was kinda pissed off tho, I thought the paper is gonna be twice as hard but ngeh. Shit laaaa!

Belakangan ini I keep forgetting to update my dear bloggy-sayang. Haha. Padahal laptop standby sebelah kasur (on a chair, I have 2 chairs in my freaking small room). The laptop is such a good stress relief. Kalo udah frustrated baca pelajaran tinggal nyalain, watch some random anime, finish watching it and back to studying!

Ive been watching 49 episodes of Kamen Rider Den O last week. And Im pretty hooked up with that Tokusatsu. Its funny and its full of heartwarming friendships (wth?). Teeheee~ and the guys in the film are cute tooo~ Haha YUICHI NAKAMURA! ::heart:: love his smile. Hehe :D tho he's such a narcist.. lol!

Oh yeah! 3 exam papers to goooooo! -physics practical, accounting paper 1 aand chamistry paper 5H. Wheeeeeeeeeeee~

wanted - a new life

Damn damn damn!
I screwed up my accounting paper 3! >_<
Im so fucked up. I need to get a good score in paper 1, so at least i can get a C. Hahah.Come come C (this only applies for accounting).

I need to get a freaking A in science. Haha.
And oh great... Physics. Hope that I wont screw that paper up!
Pray for me people! Teehee. 16 more days of exams. Great. And 5 papers to gooo!
Still a long way but.. you know, we gotta face the challenge and do our best in order to achieve what we want.

Whee~ my cousins are gonna face their exams next week. Good luck people!

You know, I somehow think that this place isnt a good place for me to curhat. haha. Mabe I should curhat here once in a while.

Ok ok. The reason y i want him to leave me alone is that so i can keep him out of my mind for now. N that is because I kinda... err think that I would be torn apart when he leaves. Ya you know. I wanna reduce the pain i might get in the future. I dont want my mind to be disctracted by that. I had also realised that i have to prioritise some other things too. I do not want my targets to be destroyed by those feelings. I need to focus on more important things.

 And Ive had realised that I have screwed around 40% of what had happened in these years. That guy hadnt shared most of his thoughts with me. Just because that I would spread his secrets to my girls. Ok so the point is that he has no sense of trust in me, because I would end up messing everything up.

Now I gotta admit that my feelings for him is now different. I would not go hyper because of him. Hes not my everything. ergh. so undescribableeeeeeeeee